On Attention.

Pay attention. It’s all about paying attention. Attention is vitality. It connects you with others. It makes you eager. Stay eager.

Susan Sontag

At what point does attention become distraction? I think they are more synonyms than opposites. Distraction is just a shift in attention. Everyone is paying attention to something, whether or not they are supposed to be. It both holds and prevents focus because it is a descriptor for both.

Once something captures my attention, it holds it hostage. Sometimes it works in my favor, often it doesn’t. I want to be thought of a certain way, I want to pay attention to important things, but it is easier to be absorbed by stupidity and nothingness. I focus on all the wrong things for too much of my time.

Even writing this is hard. Back and forth for weeks. I can never write what I want, only what emerges. I should not make promises. My attention has flitted and this is the best I can muster.